its hard to go through a day when ur mind is occupied by something. Nad u cant seem to stop thinking about it. Feels weird. Same goes to feeling weird when u cant solve a matter and it keeps going through your head.

i'm in way over my head these days. kinda feeling a bit bored..nah..just thinking too much..wouldnt it be nice if images in your head could be printed out? instead of it being stored away and be ..well..just be a memories.

Date: 4th September (tuesday) 2007..the day i'll always cherished in my heart.hehe..(R.A.T)

in other news..we have finally finished the Sports Day and Jog-a-walk...tiring..very..but it was awesome.ALhamdullillah..all praise to Allah s.a.w...gave us the strength and patience to overcome it.

Life gives you sooo much hope..then it lets you down..

I miss my kids..i really do..

How do you know when to give up? How do you know you've been used? How do you know if someone is sincere? How do you know that things are just the way it is? No thanks or anything? Where's teh appreciation? Just a miserable mutter of thanks on the way out and that's it? What lies and talks of something which you dont even mean? What has made you believe that i am the person i once am before? Do you not know how i feel? The anger, the confusion, the surpress hate, the bottled anger just waiting to explode like a volcano. and you..feeling sorry for yourself? Just bringing you to your lowest self? Why cant you just deal with it? You know it you know what will happen.. so why pursue..let go..yuo got to just let go. even things of which seems better..nothing ever is..You'll only play apart of a game..an endless game..

hope? forget it..it lets you down so many times..you could just lose it.. so hope? leave it to the believers..

" ..i'm tired of being hurt, i'm tired of being used, i'm tired of feeling unappreciated, i'm tired of being concluded, i'm tired of being assumed, i'm tired of being kind, lastly i'm tired of being your doormat. but note this, i'm there if u need me, i'm there if you need a shoulder to cry on, i'm there if u need someone to just listen, i'm there if u need a friend, i'm there if u need to release your anger..i'm there for you..just let me know.."

Whooooohooooooo!!! I'm finally 21 years old!!!! WHoo hoo!!
Yeah right..i woke up morning feeling groggy tt day. yes yes..suppose to be excited..but i slept late the day before doing my lesson plans. hehe.. So came late to work..duh..
Nothing much happen tt morning. Kak idah came and gave me a gift which i soon opened later..one of my student from k1a, syahirah, gave me a card and 2 chocolates. Later on, my k1b's, were more exicted. They came to schoola nd couldnt stop singing the birthday song for me. Got into class, more singing from them. haha..even recorded it in the camera. Then later, one of teh parents came and gave me a gift. Which i also opened up on tt spot. I read the card..haha..it was all so funny and made me teared up. The card was signed by my class parents..Sweet isnt it..but tt's not the end.When i released my class at teh  end of the day, guess what?? SURPRISE birthday party for me By mY StUDEnts PArents!!! haha..shock..i received two enormously large cakes. We opened one..haha..so celebrated at teh basement with my parents and the kids.
so much excitement..but paiseh also..infront of all teh teachers. they came down..they were like..asal tu..haha..
so the time waited for 5pm. wasnt really in the mood. Msg a good fren of mine asked whether if attending my bday party. no reply. so was kinda down. then cik eton came. oklah..happy abit. then party started..was forced to smile..haha..then ah these ppl kept whispering behind my back..soon..i heard a fimiliar sound..looked up and LO and BEHOLD!! My fren came..hahaha..shock..i htink i dropped my heart somewhere under the table. i turned my chair around to hide myself from crying.haha..my fren was like..ni aper pasal pulak ni...haha..well sorry mate. i really didnt expect you to come.after all..man ana kan? But thank you lah..it meant the world to me. thank you. and to my colleagues too..thank you lah..loads of food..and satay..and teh best part of all..i get to make a wish for all of them..yeah..tt's teh best part.. btw u are all evill..very evil for the surprise..
so got home with my family waiting by a cake for me..all i hope is my doa will come true..but thank you all for your birthday wishes and all..my wish?? tt's between me and god..haha..

And today..my sis and her family, and my bro and wife and myself..we all went to watch HARRY POTTER together..aint tt cute????hahahahahha...

What i've gotten for bday:

• a new camera
• 2 chocolates
• 2 lollipops
• 2 large cakes
• 1 adidas bag
• 8 great doa's
• i think more to come..hahaha..
• "300" dvd!!